

for marieka
neahkanie may 2020 no kidding i'm as big as this earth big as the wind in locomotion look at the teal of the sea it never ends end has no end and the seals play along its edge if 6 was 9 that'd be fine or if heaven were hell it was an angel that fell after all to create their own paradise gabrielle and lucifer are brothers, sisters and blood runs deeper than sin i close my lids, its all the same this edge is as holy as a summit a thin transition line between the elements i am a rock! it's where i stand nothing quite as sacred as land its infinite disintegrations like when the pine trees slide into the sea i will be ready to be swallowed whole macerated and shit out clean like rain escaping heaven only to turn back tracing circles on a plane shaped without time
september 2019 goodbye ocean! my voluptuous lover! lay off the sodium, it makes you bloat or do whatever you want i’m only joshin until i’m back soak the verse & when i do step back in you’ll know my head follow me on this velvet gradient the salmon’s dimming pupil about to dip underwater leaving us indigo lines in threes we descend this jacob’s ladder submerged to salt water when in the hills i fucked the land now there’s the sea she’s back — life, my lover praise the gods hollow belly running off unalloyed joule under gray satin ripplings enigmatic stitches liquid salt water wine dry in my throat eucharist mists scrub over my veins hemoglobin rust chains the moon near the moon near i match it face to face on the aqueous face clasp limbs over the whitecap rim sink to my toes catch my breath to feel her breathe to break surface like slick fish she a mirage of hands combing over sand over over tracing land’s epidermis wearing down skin i love you now just as then even when i’m not here even when i’m sleeping even when i’m leaving even when i’m dead