third vow

neahkanie
may 2020

no kidding
i'm as big as this earth
big as the wind
in locomotion
look at the teal of the sea
it never ends
end has no end
and the seals play along its edge

if 6 was 9 that'd be fine
or if heaven were hell
it was an angel that fell after all 
to create their own paradise
gabrielle and lucifer are brothers, sisters
and blood runs deeper than sin

i close my lids, its all the same
this edge is as holy as a summit
a thin transition line
between the elements
i am a rock!
it's where i stand
nothing quite as sacred as land
its infinite disintegrations
like when the pine trees slide into
the sea
i will be ready
to be swallowed whole
macerated and shit out clean
like rain escaping heaven
only to turn back
tracing circles on a plane
shaped without time

zoom

2 april

the stance resuscitated
palms open like eyes
arrows drawn back in lines
still
still is energy, potential
still goes the clock hands
when batteries are done
still are the legs
before the race is run
still but turning
smack goes the heart against the lungs
without direction
even the gulls take motion
thru wind not wing
even the eyes see
beneath the lids of a blink
& with black ink or graphite
or a knife to a tree
even i could live
without standing
with no need to breathe

unvirgin

september 2019

goodbye ocean!
my voluptuous lover! 
lay off the sodium, it makes you bloat
or do whatever you want
i’m only joshin
until i’m back soak the verse 
& when i do step back in 
you’ll know my head
follow me on this velvet gradient
the salmon’s dimming pupil about to dip
underwater
leaving us indigo
lines in threes
we descend this jacob’s ladder
submerged to salt water


when in the hills i fucked the land
now there’s the sea 
she’s back — life, my lover
praise the gods
hollow belly running off unalloyed joule 
under gray satin ripplings
enigmatic stitches liquid
salt water wine dry in my throat
eucharist mists
scrub over my veins
hemoglobin rust chains
the moon near the moon near
i match it face to face on the aqueous face
clasp limbs over the whitecap rim
sink to my toes
catch my breath


to feel her breathe 
to break surface like slick fish
she a mirage of hands combing over sand 
over over tracing land’s epidermis 
wearing down skin
i love you now just as then
even when i’m not here
even when i’m sleeping
even when i’m leaving
even when i’m dead